you don't want to read this. really.

A year passes by...

a part of me died.

So I left my laptop power supply in ABS-CBN yesterday... no wonder my backpack was a little lighter than usual!

I got it already, and yes it was still plugged in.

One of my LS11 teacher's stories was about "thanks". He starts with how the old man Lopez of Meralco would come to the plant whenever a problem would happen, go up to whoever was fixing it, pat him on the back and say "thanks". My teacher would then ask us what was wrong in the situation, and would finally say that as the scenario is repeated, the word "thanks" loses it's value until it becomes just another word, when in fact it shouldn't be.

I've been able to relate to it. I don't really hear it much, or at least one that wasn't mentioned in passing or as a form of jesture. I suppose that's the reason why I can't handle situations like this, and would probably look like I'm unappreciative of it.

I've realized that not everyone can handle this though. Some would want all the thanks in the world while others can probably live with only a little. Obviously, I fall in the latter.

Still, it's nice to know that people actually appreciate your work. Sometimes I'm surprised when I find out that what I consider to be trivial and little means soo much to other people, but the mere fact of knowing this makes me feel... strange inside.

Of course, I may just have a whacked metric of what is a good job and what isn't, but I suppose that's part of what makes me me.

For some strange reason I'm getting tired of things around me. Right now I just want to focus on work (which, in itself, is quite vast already...) and then compliment it with wind-down stuff.

I think I'm getting old lol.

I don't respond well to certain situations. From the outside it seems that I just don't care about it. It's just that the situation may just be too new or too alien for me, so it's numb time with an little-more-observant eye trained to the other.

But deep down I do appreciate them.

Yesterday, my mom said that she'll just visit my uncle's house. While their place is just in the other subdivision, it's on the farther side, so it'll take a while for someone to get there. Imagine my surprise when my mom came back just after 15 minutes.

I still can't believe that my uncle bought the house two houses from my place. He came back from overseas for a few weeks of vacation, saw the "for sale" sign, and boom - his familiy will be moving in within the week. They practically spent the weekend cleaning the place up, with my cousins visiting the house to watch TV or so.

I suppose it's a good thing for the family. Admittedly, the most apparent benefit is that I don't have to go so far if there are problems with their computers or what not, but I do believe there are more things here that I fail to notice :D.

I'm also thinking of connecting the two houses through WiFi. Hmmm.

My officemate is talking to herself right now.

Am talking to a trainee right now, and he said something that I found interesting:

"you don't have to like something to be good at it"

I dunno I guess I've never looked at things from that angle.

http://www.eff.org/corrupt/

It's an interesting video on defending digital freedom.

So I had this really really really terrible experience today that I'm not sure I can tell here. It was soo fucked up that... *sigh*

Then I woke up. Wheew. It felt soo real though, and I don't really know why I got that nightmare.

*sigh*

So Kaingin.org is now pointing to the 88-MPH.net VPS that I am part of. Hopefully my orgmates will be able to make good use of it.

This is also the first time I've set something up to be used by other people. The home directory is set to a subfolder in /srv, no sudo access for their account, and some MySQL databases created beforehand for them to make use of.

I hope to configure PostgreSQL and Postfix (and eventually mail) for use. I'm also thinking of a backup script thing for protecting the data, and I'll read up on logrotate to keep the log sizes in check.

I'm currently administering a module exam for a client of hours. So far, they found 3 items that needed correcting.

I call this the "5am syndrome" heh

So I did manage to get up at around 4 in the morning, and I don't remember my mom hammering me with my pillows just to get that done.

Parents wanted to wake up early so we can leave early. Almost all of the schools will start their classes for SY 2006-2007 which means heavy traffic. We left at 5:15am, which is 30 minutes earlier than our departure time last summer. We still felt the opening of classes though, since the roads were more crowded that usual. I arrived at Megamall at around 5:50am already, after dropping my little sister and mom to their respective destinations.

As I crossed EDSA, I thought of taking the MRT and observe the traffic situation below. In the end, I decided to just take the bus and face the traffic if ever. I did make a little adjustment here: normally, I would ride a bus to Buendia and then catch an FX to Ayala. Unfortunately the area I wait for the FX is somewhat an MMDA question mark since there are no signs if public vehicles could load people up. I also noted that there are buses that pass through Ayala from EDSA, but I haven't been able to ride those yet, so I was curious to try them out this time.

Fortunately I found one, and 15 minutes later I found myself walking to the office =D.

Some other notes:

1. There is this KFC store near my office.  It's open 24 hours a day except on Sundays where it closes at midnight and opens up at around 10am the next day.  I usually eat breakfast here and figured it was alright to do that again because today was a Tuesday.  Was somewhat shocked to see it closed as they seem to have not opened for Independence Day yesterday.
   
2. I went to 7-Eleven instead to get a hotdog.  They now have this divider saying that those after it are still being cooked and are not fit for consumption.  Awesome!  There was one hotdog on the other side, and I took it without hesitation
3. Turns out that hotdog was the spicy one.  Belch.
4. I administered an exercise on Threads and Synchronization for the training camp we have know.  I did a Videoke app exercise, and wrote all of these crazy reasons to justify why I structure it that way.  The trainees are still pounding on their keyboards for it though... I'll need to cut the time soon so we can move on to the next lesson.

I'm a man on a mission.

Basta yun lang ha. Kung meron pa mang extra e bahala na si Batman

Just finished watching House. It's easily the heaviest, most emotional episode I've ever watched. I even got stuck at around the scene at the 40 minute mark (including commercials, of course), and didn't really get what happened in the ended. Yes, today's episode was disturbing.

Could you quantify how important one's life is? Is it worth standing up for, especially if the the consequences are great? I imagine I'm put into this in my own special way, and I can't stop thinking about it.

Sleep should be able to bend back things, and I should really hit the sack if I am to wake up at 4. But for now, let's savor in this feeling.

So it's emptiness for breakfast, and then this at night.

Happy birthday, Jamie!

I normally buy the large-sized softdrinks. A while ago, however, someone asked me to buy a regular (aka small) coke for her. I was on my way to Chowking to get halo-halo to torture the trainees more, so I could get her her regular coke. No regular cokes in Chowking though, so I decided to check out the stores nearby:

Regular in Chowking: Php 17.00
Regular in Jollibee: Php 19.00
Medium in Greenwich: Php 22.00

Hmm...

Forgive me
Evanescence

Can you forgive me again?
I don't know what I said
But I didn't mean to hurt you

I heard the words come out
I thought that I would die
It hurt so much to hurt you

Then you look at me
You're not shouting anymore
You're silently broken

I'd give anything now
to kill those words for you

Each time I say something I regret I cry I don't want to lose you.
But somehow I know that you will never leave me, yeah.

'Cause you were made for me
Somehow I'll make you see
How happy you make me

I can't live this life
Without you by my side
I need you to survive

So stay with me
You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside that I'm sorry..

And you forgive me again
You're my one true friend
And I never meant to hurt you

This song has been playing in my head for days now, and I don't really have a good explanation why except that it's beautiful

I got home at 3 :-O